Margaret Penman

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Hello Mam

Kate and I successfully completed the Inverness 10k yesterday. so far we have raised almost £200. We printed a picture of you on our t-shirts, the picture of you in fancy dress at Helen's party. Next year Kate and I might run the race in fancy dress. The weather was awful but I am secretly proud of myself for managing to cross the line in 1 hour 24 minutes and Kate's amazing time was 1 hour 8 minutes. Although I enjoyed the day, the atmosphere, the amazing sense of achievement, my heart was tinged with sadness when the realisation of the reason for the event started to sink in. I think, well i know that you would be really proud of us. Alan took some before and after photos yesterday, which i imagine will be very interesting.
Your work colleagues’ had a collection last week as they were unable to come to the tea party. I am popping in to see them on Wednesday. I often think about the quote that you used to say to me when I couldn't see the point in life' to leave this world knowing that one person has breathed easier because I have lived' makes a lot of sense. The void that has been left in our lives is testament to how fabulous you were.
I miss each and every day. My love always Lynne.xx


Posted on October 3, 2011

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Hi Mam

I know it has been a little while since I last wrote to you but the last few weeks have been really difficult. My heart still aches for you every day and I wish you could come back to say just one last goodbye, but unfortunately, well fortunately life still swiftly moves on. You are never away from all of our thoughts.
I held a tea party today to raise money for Meningitis uk, there was a steady stream of people throughout the day and even uncle Jim managed to get here on the bus without getting lost, with Helen's help of course ha ha. We raised a grand total of £115. It has been a difficult day but everyone rallied round to make it an enjoyable event. Also Kate and I are taking part in the Inverness 10k next sunday. We have chosen a funny picture of you to put on our t-shirts.
Fundraising for meningitis uk, although small, has given me a purpose, a reason to keep going. I think you would be proud of our efforts.
I will write again with more news. I love you and miss each and every day mam. love lynne. xx
'When to the sessions of sweet silent thought
I summon up remembrance of things past.'

Posted on September 24, 2011

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Hi Mam

Uncle Jim, Helen, Emma and I went to see your Bench at Beamish last Sunday and we finally had a day there without rain. We ate our picnic at your favourite spot and Uncle Jim left you a piece of marzipan under your bench. Oh how we all laughed when remembering the time you were cross with Uncle jim for eating the marzipan out of the fridge " I was going to bake with that" and when asked what happened to the other 1lb block of marzipan that was in the fridge you replied " well, I ate it".
Although we are all still overcome with sadness we are starting to laugh again. You are never away from our thoughts and all of our conversations contain at least one Maggie and Aunty G reference. Speaking of Aunty G she is going to have dinner with Uncle Jim and Heather tomorrow, I will keep you updated on the trail of destruction she will leave, ha ha, only joking Aunty G.
Steve from Meningitis Uk is going to visit Uncle Jim on Wednesday and I am going to hold a tea party to raise money for meningitis, lets hope the cup cakes look better than the ones I made for Helen's party.
Also my picture has been chosen to be published on the front of a psycholgy services report. It is the picture of a bird in flight, just like Jonathan. I read the book again when I stayed with Uncle Jim last week. Every time I see a bird I think of you soaring carefree spreading your spirit around us all. I miss each and every day. I love you Mam. xx

Posted on August 8, 2011

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Hi mam. Almost seven months have passed without you in our lives but you are never away from my thoughts. I miss you every minute of every day.
I talk to your photo every night to keep you informed, just like we used to talk on the phone and get the same response, ha ha.
I know how much you loved Jonathan Livingston so I have drawn some pictures of a seagull in flight, which i might add might be published on some Mental Health literature, fingers crossed. Uncle Jim said that fame could be round the corner, which it might, but a very big corner ha ha. I have taken my painting of the little girl out of storage as I know how much you liked it. I have also blown the cobwebs off my degree show sketchbook which contains the pots and poems that you liked. Miss you.

'Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember me; You understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.'

P.S Heather took us out for dinner and to pictures with Aunty G, who is missing you lots but still as funny as ever, causing a scene at the cinema with ice cream, tut tut. Im sure she will tell you. Love you.xxx

Posted on July 28, 2011

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